It scared me

Skin like milk

Voice like silk.


2 nights ago, I lost you, walking down the road.

When head rests on shoulder I do feel closer, to you, natural, like once before.

I lead the way, for the first time, with you.

Your face is like a young man's, just with more tired eyes.

When you showed me your stomach, you sucked in, I noticed that, why?

I saw a ripple, a line divide the two.

The muscle and fat, the bones in your toes.

Soft skin is better than rough,

It is nice when you look at me in the eyes.

You fixed your hair, I noticed, with a gel or something sticky.

Your tongue is placed shortly in your mouth, I could tell.


I scared myself when I noticed my buzz kicking in, I was talking too much and revealing things I normally wouldn't let slip out, did that scare you, it scared me.

A change of pace

I wanna strum the chords inside you

I find it to hard to understand you

I wanna cross a line so badly

Only to dance in woe alone


WAVE the fan in the opposite direction
I don't wanna feel it's mock
There is almost no more affection
I don't like to talk, and talk, and talk


I wanna change the pace inside you

I wanna elbow the bad away

I held the hands of golden kings

I've helped crumble some of them too


I wanna strum the chords inside you

Disappear on clouds around you

I wanna feel the light turn on

I find it hard to understand


WAVE the fan in the opposite direction
I don't wanna fell its mock
There is almost no more affection
I don't like to talk, and talk, and talk

Silver Mountains

She's had a lot a good opportunities and some bad ones.

And everyone told her, but she felt it resonate within


She adverts her eyes to feel the same, no expression on her simple face.

Pushed aside the best people in her life, cause she had to fill the silver mountains in her eyes.

She adverts her eyes to feel the same, she exhales all of that bullshit fate.


She climbed the stairs instead of the escalator.

She wasn't thinking who would see her.

But everyone did, because her hair was black, and she wore a orange coloured hat.


She sits and orders a hot chocolate, because she had to let it sink

She couldn't bare to watch it slip away, she exhales all of that bullshit fate.

She adverts her eyes to feel the same, no expression on her simple face

I find myself staring into space, waiting for the file to upload, hearing that it is more difficult to walk backward than foward

Heat rises

All, of the time, spent with you, is rising out of her belly into her eyes, into her pillow...following her to the toilet, to her socks, off her bra, taking her ring off.

Heat rises, new force, the force, sloped eyes (that means downward) large arms (hold her tighter, tight, meaning no space in between, for once!)

Ride is the heat, in a motor vehicle. Arms wrapping around her, and his belly.

Smelling the neck and the pits, and watching him hold his hands the way he did.

Heat rises when she thinks of him, a particular shared madness and same food group, he eats her, she eats him too.

golden mystery

wow, this golden mystery

blew socks right off my feet

only discreet before moon came up, restaurant, go!

poof, no phones, distractions of you.

wanna go and dance the feeling away, because tonight, i cannot sleep.

BLACK PEPPER.


When did I get these breasts, these shaking hands, cheekbones, an appetite for hair, body odour, hands and peppered breath?

When did I take the bus, for so long, just to get out of this place, for the day, and maybe the night...

Did I clean myself mostly standing up, or lying down, with my bones, in a unnatural way.

Who did I meet along the way, and why am I going now...

harvest moon

"When we were strangers, I watched you from afar

when were lovers, I loved you with all my heart


But now it's getting late, and the moon is climbing high

I want to celebrate, and see the sun shining in your eyes"

-Neil Young

He laughed so hard

I once ran around the block with Hershey kisses in my hand.

I didn't think twice.

July

Make the grass grow
I wanna see it sprout

shoot up real nice and green
for all that new grass to be seen

Make the grass grow
I want to lie in it

have no other place to go
recognize it's ours, to touch and hold

and when she put that key inside the lock

All she had to do was slide it in, and he knew.


It was always hard to know what she was thinking


See, that's the way the whole world opened up for her-

telling secrets

and staring out patterns,

in eyes,
couches,
flowers and night

peeling away to reveal the next solid

It sounds like echoed breath

He jumped into the water,
diving right into the waves,

she cried watching him do that.

She was on the beach, kneeling,
trying to dig as far as she could into the sand

breathing really deeply,
so deeply that she almost passed out

while he was underwater with his eyes wide open

A strange exchange

Strains on a marriage

Work that couldn't get done

Introducing friends

Birthdays, laced with jealousy

Using words on purpose to hurt someone


"How did it end up this way?" her husband thought


codes

symbols

borrowed


All of that interesting work

breaking away the story

cracking parts

feeling ones body you've never

dreamt about

the stubble left all over his body

they held each other so fucking closely

that for once, she wasn't thinking


then,

they stared at each other (and she was so thankful)

to shave off the hair

and see his face, for the very first time

face tipped upward

The kind of face that had, the nose, the mouth, the chin and the cheeks, all pointing in one direction, up.

water over wine

aurora

aurora

talk despise me:

"It feels so good when you rub on my head like that"

"I know, you probably use it more than you think"

eons

Change is a funny thing to go through when you are aware of it.

This morning, heaviness is my body, my thoughts, my not wanting to do anything, except find some loose fitting clothes and listen to music, softly, in different languages...expecting the unexpected